He: You sound GRUMPY
Me: I AM grumpy
He: So what, you just wanted to call and yell at a male?
Me: I guess so
He: Well get after it then, I don’t have all afternoon, lady
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He: You sound GRUMPY
He: That’s one of my favorite things about you; you don’t give up on people.
Blessing your food isn’t a silly ritual.
It’s an intention to your body to utilize exactly what it needs to function for your best and highest good.
It’s gratitude for the meal in front of you and honor for whatever life had to end in order for you to consume it for fuel and sustenance.
It’s being present with that knowledge, and humbled by it, and feeling blessed by it.
Chewing your food slowly (30 times a bite) ensures that you taste it and that it’s broken down well for your digestive system to process it easily. That means less of it will be stored as fat, your organs won’t be taxed, and you’re more likely to enjoy your meal. Try not to multitask when you’re eating, or eat in front of the tv or computer.
Eat when you’re hungry. So many people look at their watch when you ask them if they’re hungry. The watch has no way of knowing if you’re hungry or not. Your body does. Listen to it. Besides tradition, there’s nothing that says we have to have three meals a day. Your body will tell you when it’s time to eat and it will have a good idea of what it wants too. Drink lots of water. Most of us are chronically dehydrated, especially in the wintertime, and that’s mistaken for hunger. Bless your water too.
Probably the best thing you can do for your body is eat food that’s been made with love. The body recognizes that and integrates it, just as it integrates the anxiety and adrenaline of animals that are killed for food. Blessing your food to your body mediates the negative and accentuates the positive for a healthier eating experience.
There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be the center of someone’s world, but if that’s what you want, don’t choose someone with an expanded view and experience of the world and expect them to limit themselves to the space you take up in it.
I am through being anyone’s exotic pet. There are women out there who would be more than happy to play house and orbit around you and make your needs and the relationship their sole focus and source of everything – but I’m not that woman. If you don’t or can’t get that, be honest with both of us and walk away instead of trying to cram me into the ridiculous box of relationship expectations you keep dragging with you everywhere you go. Your expectation of me has no basis in my experience of reality. I have no obligation to be what you want me to be. Your ‘investment’ in me does not deed you my heart. We’re speaking different languages, coming from different places, and you trying to wrestle/manipulate me into submission is not going to give you the result you desire. I’m choosing to leave this because I know better than to beat my head against a brick wall. I don’t need to justify my truth.
I care about you very much. I want you to succeed and be satisfied in life, I want you to know Love. Please, find someone who wants the same things you want, be happy, move on. I’ll be happy for you. You’ll be happier. The reason you’re miserable is that you’re resisting the truth… just stop. It’s not personal, it just IS. Oil and water don’t mix.
Blessing you and your journey and moving on.
I have to say it hit me pretty hard to hear you’re seeing someone. I struggled with that for quite a while. I guess a part of me is attached to the idea that someday we would try again, when I had grown enough to be the partner you needed. I wanted to believe in that because the time I spent with you was maybe the only time in my life where I felt I was where I belonged. Maybe a large part of my spiritual growth has been initiated due to that belief, but I wanted it for myself too and I don’t regret it, it’s all been for the greater good. I like who I am a lot better now, I respect me and I feel satisfied with myself, which I can’t remember ever having felt before. You told me a long time ago that whoever taught me that I was not enough just as I am did me a huge disservice and I finally believe it. Thank You for leaving that bread crumb for me to find again. I’ve come to know that I am ok just as I am. I am competent, I am resourceful, I am kind, I am generous, and I am living with integrity, unfolding my own truth. It’s the greatest work I’ve ever done, and for your contribution to that, whether you knew it or not, I am very grateful.
I want you to know that I harbor no ill feelings toward the new woman in your life. I truly want the best for you, I want you to have love in your life, and I want you to be happy and satisfied. The timing of this isn’t lost on me, so I understand that this door is closed for now and you need your privacy. I will honor that. Know that I send you light and love every time I think of you, and I’m not hanging on any expectation for or of you. I just love you and bless your journey.
I’ve been the most important woman in your life for ten years; it’s awkward stepping back from that post and making room for someone else, someone I don’t know. I miss your voice I’m sure I’m going to miss you talking me through a roadtrip at 1am, or calling you up to tell you what cool thing happened to me today, because you’re the first person I want to share it with, because I know you’ll GET it and you’ll share it with me in a meaningful way. My victories, my brick walls, my stumblings, you always know how to be there for me. The out of the blue calls to check in that last for hours and always add something to our experience, and the answers that we’ve always seemed to have for each other, the music, the shared synchronicities that seem to pop up even though we’re a thousand miles apart, the wisdom we find in unexpected places. I even miss you complaining about the traffic in Seattle. It’s been rough going through this latest storm without you, but I’m doing it. The karmic connections from this to the us of back then are evident, I’m doing for myself what you had to do for you at one time, and you gave me the tools to do that. Again, Thank You. I’m taking my life back. I’m doing something meaningful with my time, and the ways that your words and actions are wound into that are infinite.
You’re my best friend. I wish you all that you want and need. I love you.
People, we have to stop claiming this government.
It’s not “our” government. We have absolutely no bearing or influence on the decisions they make because they’re not asking for our input. They let us vote on little things, things that don’t necessarily matter. All of the big stuff… no vote – they just pass it. They’re not our lords or masters, they’re a bunch of overpriced hookers for a lot of parasites with $$ connections. We have to stop claiming them or claiming responsibility for them, even in jest, in sarcasm or out of habit. They don’t care about us. We have no representation. They don’t want us to know how many constituents are calling and complaining, or how they’re being asked to vote by the citizens of this country. They used to tell us what our neighbors thought. Now they just project their talking points onto the tv screen to make us think our friends and neighbors are the enemy – and a lot of us buy it, going around huffing and puffing like a bunch of self-righteous pricks about the ‘liberal media’ and the ‘religious right’ … who fucking cares? Who labeled them? The TV. Two words – Paid Actors. So running your face (or fingers) about these labels just proves you’ve been sucked into their fantasy. What’s better about that than being addicted to The Bachelor? You’re not making a difference, you’re still wasting your precious time on something that’s staged for ratings, and you’re alienating yourself from your peers and the people you care about. How is that WINNING? Fuck those guys.
Quit buying what they’re selling. Talk to actual people that you know… real human beings, your co-workers, your parents, your kid’s teachers, your fb friends. Quit using their buzzwords, quit lumping people together into groups of stupid. NONE of us are completely sold on every aspect of what these ‘parties’ claim to stand for – talk to people about real shit that matters. Make a statement with your dollars. Don’t support them or their corporate interests. If you do, don’t bitch.
These people in government have traded their humanity and integrity for a portfolio and a Get out of Jail Free card, they have ZERO accountability to the the actual citizens of this country – or any other country – CLEARLY. We can’t energetically support a system that does not benefit us, it’s insanity. Every time we acknowledge one of these lowlifes we give them power. It has to stop. They’re only human, and they lack integrity, honor, compassion, and true purpose. Their only job is to separate us from what matters and collect a check.
These people are not fit to govern my life. I denounce everything they stand for.
I govern ME. This is not MY government.
Me: Why the sudden change of heart?
He: I realized I might never see you again, and I wasn’t willing to risk it.
He: “Whoever told you that you weren’t amazing just exactly the way you are did you a huge disservice. You are more than enough.”
He: So, have you given any thought to the two of us seeing how this would work romantically? I mean obviously way back we did, but we never got it off the ground, never got to finish… but I mean like recently, in the last few years?
He: I KNEW it! I KNEW you wanted to see me naked!
My heart goes out to all of us who are feeling this surge of ick.
So many of us are dealing with hardship, heartache, and upheaval right now. Please know that you are not alone. This storm is everywhere, affecting everyone. We are all being beaten up psychically, whether we recognize it as that or not. We’re being torn out of our comfort zones, coming face to face with our fears, leaving relationships that no longer serve us, dealing with loss, facing the deaths of people we love, worrying over financial issues… all of which makes it feel like the earth is constantly shifting under our feet. It’s unnerving, unsettling, and scary.
Some of us are questioning our sanity and some of us are trying to control the outcome with little success. We’re coming to face to face with our darkness, and questioning what that means when we’ve worked so hard to be in and of the Light. We feel like we’re failing in our purpose, failing others, failing ourselves, falling down. We’re questioning everything we think we know about ourselves and the world and coming up with more questions than answers. Some of us are learning to ask for, give, and receive help – and it’s hard. The breaks come few and far between, and we’re grateful when the storm sleeps, because we need that time to regain our balance.
For all of you that are experiencing this, please let me remind you to take care of yourselves. This is no ordinary storm. The tools you’re used to using to cope aren’t necessarily up to this task. Your bodies aren’t designed to withstand stress like we’re seeing now. Listen to your heart and your intuition. If you need to go inside yourself and be with your pain, do that. If your body wants to sleep, let it. If you’re struggling against something and some voice is telling you to let it go, do. If you’ve recently experienced a string of setbacks, give yourself time to catch up. These are big changes and uncharted territories. Don’t blame yourself for not being up to it, none of us are.
This is a massive flood on an emotional scale. We are being washed clean of everything that isn’t working. It’s happening very fast and it’s unearthing all kinds of things we’re not prepared to deal with. How could we be? But the good news is that we’re integrating, learning, and growing, even in our sleep. We’re mapping out a new course on a global scale. We’re learning humility, grace, forgiveness, and self-love. We’re learning to reach out and empathize with others, to share our pain, and in the process, transmuting it to Love and gratitude. We’re bonding. We’re moving through darkness and coming out stronger and better. This is what we came here for, it’s why we’re here now. This doesn’t last forever. Relief is coming. Do what you have to do to maintain, but give yourselves a break sometimes to be where you’re at in this changing landscape. Look around. It’s important that you FEEL this. Only by acknowledging your feelings do you release them and relieve yourself. Try not to run from them, or distract yourself with something (or someone) else. This is an inside job. This is YOUR storm, and as ugly as it looks, there is a gift in this for you somewhere. You’ll find it on the other side of this. You will be ok, probably more ok than you’ve ever been.
We are transmuting the darkness together, communally. We’re healing each other and the history of Earth. We are standing over and protecting each other with our Love and Light, each in turn, during this healing process.
If you know someone who is going through this alone, please light a candle for them and infuse it with your Love and best intent for their best outcome. It does make a difference. I will certainly do it for you if you’re struggling.
I love you people.