Just so we’re all clear, I have no idea what I’m doing.  🙂  I’ve read a lot of information on a lot of things, played with concepts in my mind and experimented with thought processes and belief systems that have triggered something in me.  I don’t have a degree (so far), I don’t have a set of credentials for this type of spirit/mind work, I don’t consider myself an expert in any field. For the last 13 years I’ve been trying to make sense of things, put the puzzle pieces together, understand myself and my place in the Universe.  Sometimes I’m successful, others I open a floodgate of new questions.  It’s an internal and very personal version of the Matrix.

What I do for the most part, is try to experience life consciously.  I’m learning to treat life like my personal scavenger hunt.  I’m out wandering around looking for clues, collecting pieces of myself and bringing them back to the lab to study.  When something hurts my feelings or my heart, I ask myself why.  Sometimes it turns out I’m hurting myself.  When something fills me with joy, I bask in it and try to memorize that feeling and be grateful for the experience in that moment.  I try to understand my own motivations and fears so I have more compassion for other people.  When I encounter injustice or suffering, I try to improve the situation in whatever way is available to me.  Whenever possible, I try to verbally recognize others’ contributions to my understanding, joy and growth.  I do my best to learn from my mistakes, adopt new and better ways of relating with people, and give credit when it’s due, even to myself.  I try to give myself room to play the full scale of emotions as long as I don’t hurt anyone.  I strive to learn something new every day and try new things as opportunities present themselves.  I’ve realized that no matter how painful or ugly a situation is, they don’t kill me and I will survive and thrive again in time.  I’m learning to set healthy boundaries for myself.  I figure the more exposure I have to everything in life, the better my chances are at finding what speaks to me and through me.  My hope is to educate and enhance, not create fear or judgment, and to share what works for me (or not) so that if someone is out there searching for something, they might find a little nugget that resonates with them here.

I’m learning some truths along the way:

  • To get along ‘out there’, we have to get along ‘in here’.  Nearly every problem you have with someone else originates in what you think or feel or disown about yourself.
  • A successful life has way more to do with relating to other people than to anything else we work at.
  • We are more alike than not, no matter what we’re arguing about.
  • We have way more creative control than we think, we just don’t always have the patience to see the project through.
  • Don’t believe everything you THINK.  Most of what you think you know, someone else put there.
  • There is value in feeling and identifying your feelings.  Sometimes immersion is healthy as bad as it feels.
  • There are no accidents.
  • There are no failures.
  • Nothing has to last forever.
  • Nothing stays the same.
  • It’s an inside job.  No one can do it for you.

I am honored to be sharing my experience with you.  Thanks for the company…

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“Life is a journey, not a destination…” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson