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After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
and company doesn’t always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises
and you begin to accept
your defeats
with your head up
and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child

And you learn to build
all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground
is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way
of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn
that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn…

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Ultimate Contentment

Today wasn’t a special day. Nothing outstanding happened, there were no dramatic highlights, no huge insights. It was cool and overcast, a perfect day for green chile. I roasted the peppers last night, man, they smelled good on the grill. I got up and went through the rounds, fed the horses, checked the garden, washed the dishes, checked emails. I called my mom and we talked for an hour, spent some time on the phone with a boy that I like, getting to know him, called my girlfriend and got caught up on her life. I made a pot of green chile while the wind was blowing a storm in and watched my trees through the kitchen window. Fed my roommate huevos rancheros for dinner and then my cat and I went out to feed the ponies and check on the garden again. While I was standing in the garden the sunset broke through the clouds and colored the whole sky in pink and e and salmon. My cat was sitting in the weeds, the garden was thriving, my horses contentedly munching hay, my gorgeous green Mustang was parked in front of my house and we were all bathed in the most beautiful light for just a moment and I felt so incredibly peaceful and fulfilled and happy to be alive, right now, today. It was like time stood still and I realized that everything is exactly as it should be, at any given moment, if you just stop moving and acknowledge it.

There are days that are marked by profound contentment, where all the colors of your life run together and you see it as a perfect work of art, your own small chunk of the universe where everything blends beautifully and mirrors back at you and it is good. Today was one of those days. ♥

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